decided to sign up for the baptism class.
the real reason behind was to be "authorise" to hold my wedding next year in church.
what a ........ ans. at least i'm honest with myself.
attended the 1st lesson yesterday. looking thru the course layout makes me regret for signing up.
in my opinion, the stuff was rather dry and i had to go thru 3 hours each wk. plus... we need to be engage in small groups. this was the most dreading part... in my mind, i was like: oh shit! how could i survive?? this is even worse than my co course.
1st topic was super boring. the pastor came unprepared. his voice was soft even though with the mic on.
thereafter, we were separated into small groups.. i was in a diff group with boyfriend. that made me even uh.....
perhaps, God knew i do not want to face it alone. there was a change of plans when we told the pastor in charge that there will be a lesson we could not attend. it was then, boyfriend joined my group. we then knew the groups are divided according to our age. of course, i belong to the younger. but after we settled down, we were asked to change another group which the 1 boyfriend suppose to go. again, the uneasy feeling came to me though with boyfriend this time.. i was the youngest.. i was worried about the words coming out of my mouth during sharing.. anyway, things turned out quite well.. everyone has something in common with each other.
i was glad that the 1st session ended well, and i'm do not have the dread feeling anymore...
Praise to be God
Sunday, 2 October 2011
Saturday, 17 September 2011
abandoned
i had abandoned this blog for quite a long time.
i even thought of shutting down since i was penning most of my thoughts in another blog which consist more abt worldly stuff.
i'm not saying this blog should be holy. and there's no way i could be holy.
felt a gush of guilt as i read thru the past few entries. it seems that i'm so absorbed in the stuff around me nowadays.
i do pray to God every now and then. but most of them are my requests to Him.
asking Him for his blessings/ forgiveness/ wants.
i hardly read His word or even procrastinating of attending church.
even i was in church, my mind will drift off thinking what to do after the service.
what a wretch i am!
i even thought of shutting down since i was penning most of my thoughts in another blog which consist more abt worldly stuff.
i'm not saying this blog should be holy. and there's no way i could be holy.
felt a gush of guilt as i read thru the past few entries. it seems that i'm so absorbed in the stuff around me nowadays.
i do pray to God every now and then. but most of them are my requests to Him.
asking Him for his blessings/ forgiveness/ wants.
i hardly read His word or even procrastinating of attending church.
even i was in church, my mind will drift off thinking what to do after the service.
what a wretch i am!
Saturday, 19 September 2009
His Plan for me
one morning, while i was browsing thru Google news, a headline caught my eye.
"JAL plans to suspend 50 domestic, international routes in FY 2011."
for that instance, i finally understand God's plan for me.
plus with the news reported in the last few days, had made me aware that JAL is in a really bad shape.
"The airline plans to cut 6,800 jobs by the end of 2011, and aims to eliminate the most routes in its history."
"Japan Airlines May Receive More Aid From Government, Kamei Says"
"Government support may encourage carriers American Airlines, Delta Air Lines Inc. and Air France-KLM to pursue investments in Japan Air."
since young, i had this dream of being a cabin crew. i chose to be part of the JAL team instead of SQ. perhaps of the reason that it's a Japanese airline. i remembered that i sent in my application before i quited my last job. the HR called me a few days later to enquire if i'm only available after 31 Mar (which i stated in my application form). but the lady told me that if it was the case, i could not even participate in their training even if i passed their interview.
at then, i was disappointed & yet elated. disappointed cos the timing wasn't right. elated as at least i was qualified for their interview. shortly, after i left my last job, i was being recruited into a reputable German MNC which i never dreamt that i could work there.
soon after my new job started, the economy took a drastic downturn. firms around the globe are badly hit. news of airlines started cutting down their flights soon sets in. it was then i felt that i'm really lucky. imagine i was being recruited & a newbie in JAL. even i was not being recruited in the end, i might be still swimming around.
i really thank God that he intervened. He knew that i wanted to be a cabin crew. He knew that i will not give up trying (unless i get a satisfied answer)
Hence, in order to convince me that He had already had better plans :
A phonecall from JAL to let me knew i'm actually qualified for the interview but had gave up due to wrong timing. a job at MNC with no political battle which matched my expected salary.
and now i finally UNDERSTOOD. just as the bible stated:
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."
(Jeremiah 29:11)
"A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps."
(Proverbs 16:9)
"JAL plans to suspend 50 domestic, international routes in FY 2011."
for that instance, i finally understand God's plan for me.
plus with the news reported in the last few days, had made me aware that JAL is in a really bad shape.
"The airline plans to cut 6,800 jobs by the end of 2011, and aims to eliminate the most routes in its history."
"Japan Airlines May Receive More Aid From Government, Kamei Says"
"Government support may encourage carriers American Airlines, Delta Air Lines Inc. and Air France-KLM to pursue investments in Japan Air."
since young, i had this dream of being a cabin crew. i chose to be part of the JAL team instead of SQ. perhaps of the reason that it's a Japanese airline. i remembered that i sent in my application before i quited my last job. the HR called me a few days later to enquire if i'm only available after 31 Mar (which i stated in my application form). but the lady told me that if it was the case, i could not even participate in their training even if i passed their interview.
at then, i was disappointed & yet elated. disappointed cos the timing wasn't right. elated as at least i was qualified for their interview. shortly, after i left my last job, i was being recruited into a reputable German MNC which i never dreamt that i could work there.
soon after my new job started, the economy took a drastic downturn. firms around the globe are badly hit. news of airlines started cutting down their flights soon sets in. it was then i felt that i'm really lucky. imagine i was being recruited & a newbie in JAL. even i was not being recruited in the end, i might be still swimming around.
i really thank God that he intervened. He knew that i wanted to be a cabin crew. He knew that i will not give up trying (unless i get a satisfied answer)
Hence, in order to convince me that He had already had better plans :
A phonecall from JAL to let me knew i'm actually qualified for the interview but had gave up due to wrong timing. a job at MNC with no political battle which matched my expected salary.
and now i finally UNDERSTOOD. just as the bible stated:
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."
(Jeremiah 29:11)
"A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps."
(Proverbs 16:9)
Thursday, 9 April 2009
Its time to question & seek
Since I’m not good at having a conversation on this topic, aft much pondering, I decided to continue with this blog to share abt Christ.
Perhaps I’m afraid of rejection. Though I dunno how many ppl will read, but I know there will be readers.
Many ppl hv this mis-conception that I became a Christian because of hjp. Yes, he did play a small part but it’s all up to me to believe in the gospel. Frankly speaking, I was so sickened by his comments on the other religions in the first place. I found that he was too straightforward & harsh. Nevertheless, it did not turn me away from Christianity. For a start, I used to wonder about several issues such as:
1. how true can the gospel be?
2. if there is One & Only God exist, how abt the others?
3. if the other Gods do exist, wouldn’t the heaven be very lively? Then who will be the God of the Gods (since they are so many)?
4. how abt free-thinkers? When they died, where will they go?
5. speaking in the Chinese context, why do we so afraid of the hungry ghost festival while the Indians/ malays/ ang mos seem to be unaffected? When is true for one, it should be true for all.
6. the common qn which many would ask but unable to find the ans: which of the following comes 1st? chicken or egg? Many thought it is an irrelevant qn, but seriously, one of them hv to come 1st rite? Anyway I found my ans. Have you?
7. have you wonder why is there always supply of food to feed the growing population??
There were so many other qns which I used to think.. perhaps you can start to seek for ans of any 3 of the questions abv to see if you really can find answers which truly satisfy you.
Perhaps I’m afraid of rejection. Though I dunno how many ppl will read, but I know there will be readers.
Many ppl hv this mis-conception that I became a Christian because of hjp. Yes, he did play a small part but it’s all up to me to believe in the gospel. Frankly speaking, I was so sickened by his comments on the other religions in the first place. I found that he was too straightforward & harsh. Nevertheless, it did not turn me away from Christianity. For a start, I used to wonder about several issues such as:
1. how true can the gospel be?
2. if there is One & Only God exist, how abt the others?
3. if the other Gods do exist, wouldn’t the heaven be very lively? Then who will be the God of the Gods (since they are so many)?
4. how abt free-thinkers? When they died, where will they go?
5. speaking in the Chinese context, why do we so afraid of the hungry ghost festival while the Indians/ malays/ ang mos seem to be unaffected? When is true for one, it should be true for all.
6. the common qn which many would ask but unable to find the ans: which of the following comes 1st? chicken or egg? Many thought it is an irrelevant qn, but seriously, one of them hv to come 1st rite? Anyway I found my ans. Have you?
7. have you wonder why is there always supply of food to feed the growing population??
There were so many other qns which I used to think.. perhaps you can start to seek for ans of any 3 of the questions abv to see if you really can find answers which truly satisfy you.
Tuesday, 16 October 2007
I do not fear death
i do not fear death for i had know Him.
i fear for my closed ones who had not know/ accept Him.
i fear for my closed ones who had not know/ accept Him.
Saturday, 15 September 2007
i'm back
after disppearing for half a year, i'm finally back to blogging about Him & me again.
all thanks to His blessings, i'm able to start & complete my honours degree, though there was much curse and swears along the way.
mood was rather bad when i need to be back in the office doing some stuff.
however, something caught my attention while on the way home and it brightens up my day a little.
here it is.
his creation.
the colour of the sky was sooo pretty and i couldn't help smiling.
caught Evan Almightly on one of the weekdays.
i would say its much better than Bruce Almighty.
better storyline i guess.
went back to church as promised.
i hope i will hold on to this promise.
all thanks to His blessings, i'm able to start & complete my honours degree, though there was much curse and swears along the way.
mood was rather bad when i need to be back in the office doing some stuff.
however, something caught my attention while on the way home and it brightens up my day a little.
here it is.
his creation.
the colour of the sky was sooo pretty and i couldn't help smiling.
caught Evan Almightly on one of the weekdays.
i would say its much better than Bruce Almighty.
better storyline i guess.
went back to church as promised.
i hope i will hold on to this promise.
Sunday, 4 March 2007
The One
went to a just one production @ wesley yesterday.
the topic was about love.
everyone yearns to find their "one".
some even hope that his/her one will die for him/her (guess i watched too much tv).
in the mortal world context, its very unlikely.
cos humans are selfish.
however, there is only one person who loves us so deep that have died to atone our sins.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
the answer: Jesus
the topic was about love.
everyone yearns to find their "one".
some even hope that his/her one will die for him/her (guess i watched too much tv).
in the mortal world context, its very unlikely.
cos humans are selfish.
however, there is only one person who loves us so deep that have died to atone our sins.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
the answer: Jesus
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